I'm 18. Living in sweden and theirfore i'm not in collage. Living with my mom. I have no problem with People. I have started with pickup. Now working on my AA. I live in an relative small city. i Don't want to become known as a creepy wierdo so i can't spam approach. The thing is that the girls i am interested in romantically and the girls i want to sleep with are completely different. I can't have a girlfriend as long as i am living with my mom (It's not about her at all. I just feel very wierd when it comes to romance and parents). The thing is that the girls i like are shy, smart and cute. They are known to be some of the least slutty. When i was in high school their was a shy girl. Today is she slut. I am afraid that if a don't find a good shy girl now i am gonna get drunk, shallow club girls for the rest of my life. (The shy girls can't accept herself and become a club girl to deal with the shyness) i meet a girl like that last summer. There was a jacked, better looking, more charismatic guy that she treated like a beta. And me like a stud just because we had eyecontact for the first time I saw her. And my beta ass still mange to f*** it up with texting. I have seen a another girl i really want to talk to. the steriotypical shy girl cloathes. Glasses. My type just like the last. 80% chance that she is a nonslut. But here is the catch. The amout of times i have seen her compared to even my old friends is unreal. The last time was i unwashed with bad clothes. It's gonna be wierd asf if i talk to her with a direct approach. So If i am gonna talk to her It's needs to be small talk. But i Don't think it's fair that i can't ler her home if she becommes my girlfriend. And i need to get the sex thing out of my system so i Don't have the insecurity witch would kill me in a relationship. (Feel like i have missed out on life) i feel If i don't find my wife soon as long that i'm still relative Young that i'm only gonna have shallow slutty bimbos. For the rest of my life. So time pushes me to find a girlfriend but my insecurity and my life situation pushes me to avoid girlfriends and just find girls to F***. (To numb the drama around sex) Any toughts?