When I left this city my game went through the roof. I slept with 30 girls in not fully two years. I remember a Japanese girl that I brought on a date. I was a little bit bored so after 15 minutes I decided we leave for my place. She followed me. Then I fucked her alternately in the ass, then in the pussy, back in the ass, back in the pussy. I was bored. I met her just one day before in the evening ten minutes after leaving my house. She texted me after I fucked her, asked for a second date but I never replied. I had aboundance.

Then life fucked me in the ass. I had to go back to ground zero. From the guy everyone in the local liar looked up too, I became a sad dude not having his own flat living again under the roof of my family. That is when I developed an ego bigger than life. The ego was there to protect my identity.

It's a small city of around 250.000 people. The demographics are shit. Old people are in the majority. If you are lucky you met a girl with a tight ass but she probably has nothing going on in her life.

Or you can meet me, the guy who raised his ego to proportions so big, that it would protect him from the outside world. Maybe that is called insanity? Did I go insane?

A month ago I met a girl that was not the usual girl you meet here. She had her shit together. I liked her.

But then the city turned against me. The city made me appreciate her way too much. I started to blow her value out of proportion. She became a goddess to me. What happy guy I was that I found that gem!

The girl got irritated. She tested me. She became shitty and I became needy. I failed her tests because by this time I made her the star of my movie and degraded myself two the number two.

This wasn't right and she wondered what is going on. I would make her bigger than she really was.

Look, here is the point, girls are your friends! What she did wasn't maybe really testing me since she already knows me but it's basically the same as a shittest. So she acted shitty in the hope that I would have the opportunity to realize that she is not the fucking princess I made out of her. That is what a beta male always does. He glorifies women and blows them out of proportion.

But she knew, damn this guy is cool. What happened? What happened? Where did the cool guy go? I want him back! I will show him that I am not that great.

She blocked me on WhatsApp over a minor thing. I fall apart. I cried for days. Acted like I a complete idiot. Why would my princess be so mean to me? Baby, why you not my princess anymore?

What happened was that I got hooked on the sex. The sex was just so fucking good that I was hooked like a crack addict on his crack. She prescribed me abstinence.

It took me about a week of reflection and suffering until I snapped out of it. It clicked so damn fucking hard and now I saw it in all clearly! Everything that girl wanted was to help me, to help me, bringing me back to reality. To make me see that she is just a human being and not my bigger than life princess.

"She was basically screaming: I am not so special. Wake up! Wake up! I am not so special! I want the cool dude back you were when you picked me up! What did the fuck happen? Where have you gone? I won't let this happen. I like you too much."

The abstinence finally worked. I realized she is not so great as I had made her. She is just a girl and she doesn't want to be anything than a girl.

That is also why girls who like you happen to test you. Because they want to see, if you live in reality or if you see them as bigger than life beings that have ultimate power over you.

All they want is a guy they can lean on while being a girl. But you fucking introverts tend to live in your heads and not in reality. That is why you have such a hard time with girls. That is why you depend so much on abundance while the dumb dude doesn't even have enough fantasy to catch a onenitis.

So always remember girls that throw you shittest are your best friend! They like you and want to see if you life in reality.

Let's see if I can get her back. The real her, not the fucking princess from my fantasy.

Hope some of you nice guys or beginners to the game will read this and see the pattern when you catch this shit too. Be careful.

Thanks for reading!