I used to be so needy and clingy to girls only. I used to talk to girls only on my phone. I was so desperate. Now i have guy friends outside. And i never had girl-friends irl because i live in a strict small muslim town. Girls will get killed if they talk to a guy imagine if they have sex. I live in kurdistan/iraq by the way. I will turn 17 soon. I used to eat junk food and stayed 2 years inside. Now i have a job and play soccer and not shy like before im still shy though. Now i always feel like people dont value me and dont care about mostly girls. You guys get girls sending nudes to you and you didnt ask for it. Here i am such a boring guy. I always say hey how are you where you from how old you and i ask their hobbies but they only reply with one words. Those are girls in snapchat.. but i always start the convo and force it and it makes me chase after them and them being up on a pedestal. I do say i dont like my self. I hate my self for how boring a conversialist i am... and i hate putting their pussies up on pedestal. I hate looking at people as gods and i still do. I want to stop being the nice guy and i imagine how badass being the authentic me would be.. i hate being a simp i hate those. But they are real...