This morning I was walking on the street trying to approach. To this point on my life I never achieved it, and I' been trying for months.

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I was walking trying to fix my physical posture, and just trying to feel enough to "deserve" approaching.

While doing it, I noticed that I'm scared of rising my head. Rising my head makes me feel proud, and I'm gut-ashamed of being proud.

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When children, I was taught at a catholic school that being proud was something bad, as arrogant, or conceited and uncaring of other people.

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I also know from PUA stuff that self boasting tends to be interpreted as insecure.

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Also, girls seemed to be more interested on me when I raised my head.

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So, I definitely need to find a way to be proud of myself without being boasting, and feeling uncomfortable and ashamed. And I cannot conceive a mindset that allows me to do that.

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Do you have any valuable advice?