brief history; about 2 years ago, my wife (now ex) of 12 years asked for a separation; because i was generally shitty and a bad person all around. Fast foward; i changed my act, my kids love me more than the mum now; and after 2 months we got back together (it seemed like her resentment for me died down) - I tried to date in the interrim; but i never "felt" anything for the other girls.

now she separated from me again about 6 weeks ago; which has left me fully confused; she says she needs time alone as she said it's unfair to me because she gets angry at me all the time. and she started dating some guy at her work. (like seriously?)

this obviously left me in a bad spot. and i was like doing a lot of self-reflecting.

i stumbled across RSD and then this community - did a whole bunch of reading and i started to feel better until... i actually asked girls out

so i did several day game cold approaches with some success; however i feel the following

  • i feel like it's a waste of time... that i need to play this emotional push pull game in order to seduce these girls

  • i got a couple of them back to my place - to which NOTHING happened... because i just didn't feel into it... so we just watched netflix for hours...zzz

  • then i started just doing random cold approaches and testing my verbal skills and attraction. apart from the few rejections; many girls are quite friendly to me, i even escalate to a hug during day game - and one turned into some daygame kissing... i never asked for the number for ANY of these girls - what i realised was i actually felt NOTHING; no excitement; not anything...

so... my question to this group - because i noticed this is largely a self-improvement sub as well!

it appears that i don't have approach anxiety towards girls - and getting numbers/dates is just a matter of getting out there and applying standard push/pull conversation while calibrating to her responses.

however - doing all this never made me feel good/happy; just felt like i was doing all this trying to fill some hole in my chest which never gets filled.

am i broken? or do i take a longer break from women and revisit this in the future?

P.S i'm not gay either