When we first met she had a boyfriend. She's that typical perfect girl that every guy around puts on a pedestal. I don't know if it matters but I've never been in an intimate relationship with a girl.

We met last year at the beginning of high school and, obviously as a hormone-raging teenager I started feeling attraction towards her. But I told myself that it's never going to happen and that's where I immediately drew the line.

A year passes and in the meantime she breaks up with her boyfriend. During this year we became distant, we didn't talk as much and we just apart. BUT the other day day she gives me the look. We start to talk and laugh and joke together again. So naturally, I start to feel attraction.

At first I was like this is never going to happen, it's all in my head etc etc. Following week and week after that she started dropping these little hints that indicated that she in fact liked me back, like touching me, teasing me, giving me that same weird-but-very-hot look. I was aware of it, I'm not socially inept, but I kept telling myself NO.

We were at a New Year's Eve party and my mentality was: fuck it, if something's going to happen, it's happening tonight. Everything's going well, she gives me the same signs she gave before, and my mind I was thinking: yeah, this might actually happen.

I was kinda the DJ, I was responsible for the music and all that. Anyways, we were dancing, but I didn't like the music so I went to change it and she went somewhere to do something. After a couple of minutes she comes back screaming to her bff saying how she just got herself a new boyfriend.

I have been rejected before, but it never hurt so bad. And I wasn't even rejected, I never asked her out, but I feel like shit. I've been working nonstop for the last 2-3 days and in my mind all I'm thinking is "Fuck, what have I done to myself?".