19M, College Freshman Currently on a cut. Trying to cut as much as I can for spring break, but my friends always wanna go out and I haven't gone out with them in like 3 weeks due to not trying to drink alcohol. I was thinking of going there and taking some benzos only but dunno if this is a good idea Also it feels like me and my friend's relationship is kinda going side since I barely hang out with them anymore on the weekend What do you think? Am I exaggerating? Or should I keep holding off on going out/drinking until I have an aesthetic physique? Also it means no girls since I am not going out to the bars/clubs so I cant pick them up.