I'm having trouble finding a healthy sense of lust towards women if that's even a thing. I've learned not to put women in a pedestal and that has done me wonders with being productive and doing good in school. However I've discovered that if become too indifferent to women, I become sort of asexual. I like feeling like a man, I want to feel like a man around women because it is fun and energizing. However in my quest to feel like a "man" I don't want to give them too much power nor do I want to be indifferent. Any thoughts ?