I just discovered TRP and everything I read kind of blows my mind, so I'm willing to give this a try and ask you guys.

I am a 19y old girl who has had various experiences with men, including 3 relationships. However, in retrospective, I must confess that they were all beta males. I was the one that had to take initiative, lead them, I didn't do it because it's my natural behaviour though. It didn't work out for a reason I guess. Well, I've been dating another guy in the past weeks and he's really great, I felt attracted to him in a strange way from the very beginning. Since our second date (about 4 weeks ago) we have sex every time we see each other. That is the point where I realized he is a very distinct alpha male. Things are so different in the bedroom now than ever before for me. And I love it... I love it so much!

Now here's the issue I have. I somehow have problems to fit in this new role. I constantly catch myself answering back to him, being a bitch and I know he hates it. Yesterday he even left without a word after I could now constrain myself again. I really want to be with him and want to change myself, being more of a proper woman and less of an false alpha. Any thoughts on this would be greatly appreciated. Ask for details if I've been too unclear. Thank you.

Hannah

PS: Sorry for my english.