Im tired of complaining im tired of being "invisible nice guy" im tired of being boring and have no personality. I just want to cry.

I dont have a job, i dont know how to make friends because im boring and uninteresting, I cant keep my friends. I talk for 2 hours then run out of things to say.. I feel unimportant and worthless.. I dont think positive self talk gonna work on me.. I just want to fucking shout as hard as i can.. I cant do this either.. I just dont feel anything. I dont know how to react to what others are saying to me I dont know what to say to them i dont know my real self i dont know who to be i dont who i am. I dont what the fuck to do I just want to be cool i just want to be smart i jist dont want to be invisible

Like why is it so fucking hard for me to have success ? Why i always get one word replies ? Why girls never give me attention or anyone at all? Why is it so fucking hard to make a friend? I dont know what the fuck am doing anymore

I live in iraq its boring as shit here