Hey there :)

I figured this can go here as well as in r/relationship_advice, since I already have someone in my life. But the focus here needs to be made about why I am seducing. Or what for.

As a teen I was very quirky and shy about dating, but I've made my way through and arrived at 27-year old with my fair share of (mostly good) experiences. Btw I'm male.

What keeps me confused, is I don't know what to expect from relationships. I come from a dysfunctional family with divorced parents who hate each other, related to the money disagreement generated by the divorce. It's been going on and on for more than twenty years.

Also, what does not help is I'm not a social guy, I'm kind of a nerd in very niche interests, and I can spend a lot of time just at home, trying to figure technical problems out, related to my hobbies. I'm relatively anti-conformist, for I cannot make myself to get involved in the traditional couple stuff, such as meeting S.O's friends, making S.O feel valued socially, celebrating birthdays, well-wishing, sharing gifts. The only thing I naturally do is to provide a cocoon in my apartment, in which I cook and hug. Sometimes we go to the mall or to eat outside. What I'm trying to say is, if I were to find a S.O again, I need to stay true to myself, even in the seduction process. This far, it's been much easier with older women who want a hidden relationship, since the interests are common, that we would not show-off as a couple.

I cannot see myself having children yet, and it's not likely to happen any time soon. I do enjoy my time alone, I can't imagine living with someone.

Now, I could go for FWB or ONS relationships... But I've found them to lack care and affection. Every time one of my friends became a FWB, shortly after we were engaged as couple, and it did not ended best.

I have a lot of fantaisies about what I could do with my body, fueled by a life of porn interest, but I find sex to be somewhat draining if I give too much care into it, which I cannot help : I just do it because I like making my partner feel good. "Pump and dump" could never describe my attitude.

(tldr : ) So yeah, I guess I'm coming here to see whether I'm normal, and what I'd need to do more to find myself emotionally and sexually haha. I've stayed single in extensive periods of my life (many occurrences of one year and half having nothing at all), I cannot take my parents as role models for a loving relationship and I'm even too lazy to practice wild sex in a regular fashion. Finding a trustful partner I can connect to is kind of difficult, because I'm an introvert person and I don't partake at all in multiple social activities and expectations.