I don't really want to go into all the details because it would take me 2 hours to write this post so I'll try to point out most important things.

  • we're in the same college group, first year.
  • she's a slut - parties all the time, smokes, drinks, many sexual partners.. you get the idea
  • she knows about my feelings towards her, she goes down on me after one party
  • I figure out this "world" where people just party, fuck for fun, and there's no room for emotions, cruel, sad world.
  • she just wants sex, I want emotional bonding, kissing, cuddling, vanilla etc.

She goes down on me when have periods of being alpha as fuck, then we're fucking, I start to emotionally invest in her, I see things that make me jealous, break down emotionally, go beta, lose frame, break contact with her to go into monk mode, come back after 1-2 weeks emotionally strong and alpha and this cycle happened like 3-4 times already. Now I'm not sure what I should do here. I didn't speak to her 2 weeks straight, last time we spoke at mcdonalds I told her about everything (showed my weaknesses), went beta as fuck and told her I don't know what to do, she told me to chillout. Anyway I invited her for friday to go out, she declined, I knew she's gonna decline but I still got pissed somehow and sent her sms "you used me". She answered in the morning "what are u talking about?! im sick and tired of problems with ur behaviour", i responded with "don't worry you won't anymore".

Here's my options now:

1) I chill out, try not to get jealous of her fucking someone else, and if I get jealous I hide it from her as best as I can. Try to be alpha so she want to meet me more often

2) I tell her we're ending it because it ruins me emotionally and there's more negative sides of this relationship than positive

3) I tell her we shouldn't keep contact until I lose my feelings towards her - the year is ending in 2 months and we probably won't be in same group next year, I might even change town.

4) I wish her luck in the future and hope she get her life straight and start respecting herself (highly doubt it'll happen though), but she's done with me cause I'm looking for something else in my life (LTR).

5) I let her friendzone me LOL

6) I keep ignoring her until she asks for a talk and apologizes for not respecting me (not sure if I could expect that, sure I was beta at the times where I didn't deserve to be respected, but most of the time I had most alpha traits so not sure if I should expect apologies?)

What option should I pick or do you see any other options? Sorry for messy post but don't have time to write it perfectly.