i just wanted to share my journey with you guys in hope to inspire some of you guys who are reading this. i am a 20 year old male. i didn’t loose my virginity until 1 month after i turned 20 in March, 2020. i’ve had a few sexual experiences before losing my virginity. like having a girlfriend at 17 and having oneitis with her, only to be single for 3 years until i finally lost my virginity with a pretty hot girl in Vegas. i had an almost fuck with a girl at a party at 19, but didn’t fuck her cuz i didn’t have the confidence in thinking that i could please her so literally the moment i was about to put my dick in her pussy, i didn’t and just laid down on the bed. she was nice and we talked cuz she could obviously tell i wasn’t experienced. but even then, the feeling of just being emasculated like that, it just trashed my self esteem. after fucking that hot girl and losing my virginity at 20. i have fucked a total of 18 girls this year with some more dates coming in, as well as fuckbuddies that i call when i wanna get my dick wet. i’ve completely made getting laid my #1 priority with school and work as secondary. even tho, as im writing this right now, i am unemployed and just doing online school cuz of covid. the only jobs i’ve had were sales (door-knocking) since i was 18, i was a very sensitive person and would let negative feedback from people affect my confidence and self-esteem which would result in me underachieving in my life, especially with women. and that’s the reason i decided to challenge myself and take a sales job because majority of your interactions are REJECTIONS, which would force me to grow a thicker skin instead of being sensitive and taking things personally. and IT DID. i started getting sales with my desire to prove to myself that i can actually accomplish something. i simply just wanted to respect myself instead of looking in the mirror at a pussy that i was. i also learned about having an aggressive mindset in completing a goal. which later helped me with women. “when ur desire to complete the goal is greater than ur desire for the validation for the goal, THEN U WILL ACTUALLY COMPLETE THE GOAL.” now i am much more comfortable with this aggressive (masculine) side of myself compared to the pussy that i was literally last year. pussies dont complete goals, men complete goals. and now i can look myself in the mirror and actually be happy with myself from where i started. i can now actually enjoy talking to women and have fun with it instead of judging myself. my confidence is definitely above average that i sometimes intimidate people so im told. even standing at only 5’8” on a good day. im not average in the looks department, but im not a model either. i am simply above average in looks and style. my confidence is above average so i feel i can take control and dominate any social interaction. but im not someone who started with confidence, like im telling u, i was a HUGE PUSSY. and now i walk around with my head held high and shoulders back and it feels good. and realize that u just need to look ABOVE AVERAGE and PUT YOURSELF OUT THERE (believe in yourself/have some balls) and u will eventually get results. and the results will build your confidence (belief in yourself). i dont believe in PUA or dating theories, i believe in TAKING ACTION and going after what you want. god bless everyone :)