Lots of TYPOS - english aint my first language and I am drunk as fuck!

So in the start of this year I met a girl who was my age (I have always been with women much older yokerbefore) and she promised me a blue pill life - which I was very happy about - until her history came up - her partner count was twice as much as mine - which is ok - because in early 20's women like her (HB8) have a lot of offers than me. She couldn't give up the idea of leaving her ex so I dumped her and told her all that I think about branch swinging and hypergamy (big fucking mistake) - its 2 months she is gone and I slept with many women ( I live in eastern europe) - I still cannot get over this bitch at all and sometimes I have this feeling to kill myself over this pain oneities over losing her -please help me get over her. All the knowledge of TRP isn't helping at all. All I want right now is some company of her's. All ideas of selfimprovement and everything are gone to drain!! WTF. This bitch controls my life! Please help guys!