Some background: I returned home after spending time abroad where I went full trp monk mode. I had the confidence, the social proof, the gains, the fucks and the intellect to be the man while I was abroad. Alpha

After coming back home, I'm returning to social settings where I always was the quiet beta. Specifically a group of alpha friends and also my two older brothers.

Despite all my progress abroad, when I'm engaging with these two social groups I'll revert back to that quiet beta. It seems like being beta in a group is a solidified status and there is no mobility. Not just that they still regard me as the same beta, but also my brain and emotional state around these people puts me back. It's like my quick wit and ability to say anything interesting gets turned off and confidence vanishes. Other threads I searched all just said to find new friends. What about older brothers?

Is the youngest brother always destined to be regarded as a beta? My brothers are both less educated than me and less buff. They are complete bluepill around their girlfriends too. They speak down to me and I can feel their egos being hurt when I'm more successful yet my own brain sets me up to being a bitch around them.

I want to hear suggestions, other point of views or just similar stories. I feel crushed and realized I have a long way to go