So , just sitting in my sofa thinking that i have this lacking feeling, after reading alot of post , where everything so hot and cold here, got me confused. I dont know what will happen if i catch a women "just like what if a dog catches the car" moment . I am trying to focus on other things i create 3d art etc, but ultimately i keep coming back to need for connection, sex like in movies , like cigarettes after sex kind of intimacy, but when i go out in real world it just doesn't render to my expectations and i am stuck in the loop of self loathing, isolation, working alone in my cave , avoiding all contact, many kf you would say i am depresses etc, but i am not its just. When i try i fail and its shocks me, the whole seduction process is overwhelming, and i can recall back when i was young i was good with women, i had a spark in me. .

Please comment what you take from this?

Pardon my english its not my first.