I mean the title really says it. There is just so much going on all at once I'm starting to fear I can't claw my way out of this void. I even have trouble writing here cause in honest I don't deep down think it'll change anything. I just got no one else left and feeling like at the end of the day it doesn't matter. I could vanish and no one would notice and that is a terrifying thought I have nothing to be proud of and even less to take pride in. I don't know what I'm expecting from this expect maybe someone to tell me that's it's just normal and this is how I'm suppose to feel. I just don't know what to do next or if this is just it for the rest of my life...