I went to one of my friends events earlier and this one girl who had something for me tried to talk to me but her friend was there, not her fault but anyways. We started talking for 2 minutes and the vibe is a little off (I’m on the spectrum so maybe this plays a part) but I ended up starting a random as conversation and turning towards my friend because deep down I think I’m scared of how I’ll be portrayed. I would consider myself good looking but because of that there are expectations that I still haven’t met and I’m afraid of letting people down with that. I’m looking more into blood circulation like running to maybe jumpstart my day instead of just waking up and getting to work. Also the more I learn about socializing the worse I get for some reason. Everything has become technical and I can’t say this or do that or I’ll fail.