Hey there guys, I was wondering if anyone also shared a similar experience as the one below.

Whenever I get close to a girl and you know there's some signals that I start to see here and there; this moment when you start to wonder if the said girl likes you. This usually means it's going well or maybe she doesn't like you but most of the time it's a good sign.

For some reason when the girl starts being tactile and all, when you know that you might soon be able to ask her out or even kiss her, I start maybe being scared and I don't really want to try anymore...

Please note that I have kissed girls before in clubs and all and that this applies to girls I actually would date if I could.

That's the thing that happens to me every time. The problem is that this has kept me from having relationships my whole life (i'm 18yo). I will do everything right and then suddenly I can't anymore...

Maybe i'm fearing rejection but I feel like shit... This girl i'm currently talking to we went to a bar yesterday with two of her friends and there was tension, I could feel it. I believe there's something to be done (maybe i'm wrong but ig). The thing is now I don't wanna go out or anything and i feel like shit.

Maybe this is linked to my first dating experience, some kind of trauma? When I was fifteen i had my first dates with a girl and for some reason she sent me a message saying she couldn't do it anymore (we only held hands at the movies and all. i never understood why because when we went back to the car she took and held my hand (meaning there was reciprocity).

So now I genuinely don't know what to do...

Please tell me if any of you guys have advice or if anyone is in the same kind of situation.