6 years gone in dust Pooof...

IDK i wish we had a closure like someone cheated or someone was awfully/single-handedly wrong. We just couldn't get along. I was somehow always the second class citizen and she was somehow not getting what she wanted [I mean i had my issues/faults also] but heck i begged and apologized for a year. I raised 2 dogs, a cat, did all chores, took her places, made no friends, got distanced from my own siblings, always provided more than expected. I have a file in my google drive where i have all emails, texts etc where i was begging her to come back. She relocated to NJ with my daughter where she will be comfortable in her mom dad's rental property while i am left missing my 3 yr old daughter in California. My carrier is in Cali and she will NOT move to Cali and will def. stay in NJ.

I know i can always move closer (i know folks will say if i love my kid so much then take any hit) but that will come at huge carrier hit and she already layed out how hard she gonna make for me to visit/co-parent my daughter. I dont have parents anymore and its tough to co-parent with her absurd behaviors.

I went down to such a hole that i got a DUI last month due to it. It was wake up call and i am climbing out of it and fighting separation and debt. But still has anyone dealt with long distance co-parenting? If yes, any tips?

Little more Context: "I am 30 yr old and have means to stand tall for my kid and i plan to visit my daughter 4-5 times a year until i can have her over every summer and alternate holidays, i can facetime her everyday. I pre-maturely sold our house and my half went to kid's college fund [idc care about STBX's half], i want no clashes with my STBX and gave her everything she asked for i.e car title, dogs, agreed to half of 401k. IDK do you guys think my daughter will come back to me? This thought alone won't let me sleep. I take my DUI is result of my action but these type of thoughts made me act stupid, i am already a month sober and hitting gym etc. Urggghhhhhh now when i saw her last name Vs. mine on papers today i was like.... wish i was 20 again lool"