I’m quite anti social travel for a living and have no social media. I do very well one on one when connections have been made but suck at establishing connections. How can I work on this?

I’m also very physically conservative but desperately need to loosen up and dance and what not. I was at a rave yesterday and completely obliterated my self esteem. I’m not in free fall hating “the game”. What should I do?

Some background info.

Face wise I’m an 8-9 but I’m short. Which is the biggest hurdle for me something I’ve always struggled with. Any tips on this?

Something else I’m working on (which is difficult when travelling) is getting back into shape. I’m happy to say I have a very good body type and though I haven’t worked out in five years and don’t take care of myself (though I do intermittent fasting) I still have a good foundation.

Obviously getting back into shape will increase my self esteem but tough to do so while travelling and going through 6-7 catastrophes. Speaking from a mental health perspective I’m destroyed. Just to briefly mention them I’m, currently balding, going through a horrific breakup with a (goth) girl… if you know you know, lost the most loving dog in the world because of said ex who also owes me a lot of money, lost over 200k not because but in correlation to my ex (not blaming her just makes it sting more), helping my father through a horrific personal matter in which we’re both being threatened (not empty threats sadly) and 100% unstable as I need to travel.

I wish I could simply rent an apartment get a stable job and waste my life doing laundry and paying taxes but my life is fucked at the moment and will be so for the foreseeable future.

However, I am in need of help and would appreciate some encouragement and guidance.