As it says in the title, I am now newly in my 30s this year and I’m used to being in long-term relationships. Spent alot of my teens and twenties in beautiful loving connections i didnt know how to manage or appreciate fully due to lack of awareness in self or situations. Now, there’s a girl I like so much, but I don’t wanna automatically be in a relationship because I’m used to doing that. Be on top of my game, and then a girl comes in and i throw my progress out the door, lol. I had sacrificed my goals and drive to be relaxed and very comfortable with perfect beautiful body face eyes and lips next to me. Which im still grateful for.

My purpose here? What I would prefer is to be able to get very masterful when it comes to my communication, my consistency, and charisma when it comes to meeting women and people in general. This is why i do it.

Due to busy work schedules, self-care habits and a path to complete union with my creator. Sometimes I wonder if it’s really all worth it, to go and meet women, seduce them, take them to my place or nice location, have multiple rounds of pleasure and then go back home to do it all over again. Is this really what’s gonna satisfy me entirely? Or should i be dating for something deeper?

Sincerely, asking this question not to deter anybody from understanding, high-level seduction, and deep connection. My last relationship learned a bunch because I knew I could’ve done better, but I don’t want to be the person that is living in the past while that person may have potentially moved on. So after falling off my high horse, I jump back on and have been dating a girl that I really like however, there’s other girls I like to and I don’t wanna get pulled into a relationship get at the same time I could tell, but that’s really what these girls really want from me from what i can tell.

I have a date for next week and a part of me has been so on on the fence of whether or not I want to just pick a girl and get into another relationship, avoid the lonely road, or continue to date a variety of women and exceed at my skills and juggle multiple projects and career and self-care and spiritual devotion. Or I just go celibate and denounce any attention towards lust and external love and stay in tune from within, or maybe keep a good companion around with love and respect? Torn and feel like i wanna give up and go hermit mode at times.

Would love feedback from men who have been there, also ideas of being a family man or how to get back on horse after feeling like you couldve built a family with ex. Aka staying high when u feel low. I have so much to be grateful for and at times i forget to see how blessed i truly am.