Ottawa, Ontario Romance 40s M4F

Hello there. I want to introduce myself and pour my heart out here for the right woman who may feel a mutual connection after reading this.

I am a man in my 40s and had been with my second wife for over a decade now. I very much like familiarity and commitment no matter what I'm doing. My first wife was my first ever relationship and we were together for 15 years.

She was horrible to me but I didn't know it being raised a Christian (I'm no longer religious) with forgiveness and leading by example as being my guide, I endured so much not knowing that better women were out there.

I was still ready to keep going for the sake of not breaking my committments and our vows but she made me doubt if she was truly faithful to me or if she ever truly loved me, so I started to distance myself. She thought pressuring me would work, like it had worked in the past. She presented me with a legal separation agreement for me to sign thinking I was going to get back to being apologetic and close again but I couldn't take it after 25 years of the warm and cold, and the pull and push in our marriage anymore. So I signed the papers and I felt so relieved.

I didn't want anything more from life at that point than to find my perfect match who can see me for the good, loving, caring, romantic, passionate, committed man that I am and who would want to give me her love in return.

Someone whos eyes alone when looking into mine, could tell how much I'm loved and appreciated. Making love would be a physical communication of that real love and passion we share, where our bodies can't get enough of each other, and pleasure is felt as deep and strong as our connection.

It was more than 10 years ago when I started dating for the first time in my life. I was in my 30s then and I was again looking for commitment. I wasn't dating for sex, I was looking for my perfect woman.

I dated for about a year until I found my now wife who is by all accounts a great woman. But...it always felt like a best friend; similar values, similar experiences, and extremely respectful, plus she loved my children and they loved her.

As I was a single dad at the time, I thought of my children who needed a good mom figure in their loves. I married her knowing fully that I'd be missing that loving passion I was still missing.

Still, the thought of what I had been missing out on was on my mind.

A couple of years ago, I had several talks with my wife about my feelings and wanting to experience real romance and sexual happiness and satisfaction. She understood and greed that she could not provide what I'm looking for because we are both on very different levels when it comes to romance. She remained committed to us and suggested I explore online dating to find what I'm looking for.

I haven't taken any real steps to explore because I wasn't sure if online dating was the best approach. I didn't want my picture out there and being labeled as unfaithful or a cheater.

I am now finally taking this step hoping to find someone I could enjoy life with, talk to and spend hours at a time together enjoying each other's company and making real passionate love to.

My time is very flexible and I have access to private accommodations for the two of us through my business.

My ideal get together is a nice day out or staying in, whatever we decide to do while enjoying conversations and common interests then have some private time to reflect on our feelings for each other. I'm very easy going, no drama, and I'm a very good listener.

I am attractive, successful and well groomed. I take good care of myself and take pride in how maticulously clean and fresh I always am.

I can carry out conversations about almost all topics as I am very well versed in life. I am open minded and carry my heart on my sleeve.

I don't have an ideal type. I like an attractive, 30s to 40s woman who is clean, takes good care of herself and most importantly, to have a good connection and chemistry where it feels natural and effortless.

I am very laid back and easy to talk to so, I'm sure we will hit it off. I am not here for a one time hookup although I'm open to it if the chemistry is there.

Ideally, it would be long term where we can develop a real loving connection of the minds, bodies and souls. If you're out there, send me a hello and let's start getting to know each other.