I'm in a pretty shitty situation that started earlier this year. I've been battling with ptsd, drepession and self harming for a while.

around six months ago I decided to stop taking medication cold turkey it was tough and my gf left me at the same time so I was pretty much suicidal for a while. I really struggled with my work (I work in an office) its embarrassing now but I spent most of my working day browsing "how to get your ex back" forums and depression support. At the time I had given up on life so I didn't really care if they fired me. Incidentally this is how I found Trp, it helped alot and It gradually helped me get it together enough to do my work again.

So just as I start to feel better I called up to HR and they are alarmed by my browsing history and im being suspended with pay until my hearing next week.

I'm hoping the thing that may save me is that I've already seen an onsite psychiatric who although promising me support, never delivered. My mental health issues are already on record and im told they have a duty of care to an extent.

Also I've made great improvements in my work and life its just this has come back to bite me.

I know there's alot of variables here but id really appreciate if anyone could suggest how to fight this or if I'm dead to rights?