I want to start by acknowledging how much of a fucking moron I am and by the anxiety I experience now the chances of me doing something this stupid again are zero. I don't care how fucking pissed I am. Its not an excuse, I knew better.

Met up with random skank. We go for a drive with friends. Friends start hooking up so we do too. We are drunk as fuck. This girl is mega slut but still very attractive but I probably won't talk to her ever again because she is not engaging on any level. No condom, whatever. My LTR is okay with me fucking other girls and I processed that because she never got pregnant with me using pull out that random bitch won't either. I don't want to go into grotesque detail but we are all men here and this shit happens and you guys are like the father I never had so I'm comfortable just telling you straight how it is. I'll still be as vague as I can. I didn't cum in her. In fact she was such a fucking dead dog I didn't cum at all. I still feel perhaps at some point I pulled out, and you know how sometimes you just blow the tiniest bit but it doesn't actually kill your drive? You just kind of approach a bit of a climax and semen dribbles out your cock and that's that? Anyway, it happened after I pulled out because I got nervous that some teenagers were walking around but it was a stray cat. I just wiped and went back in for a bit longer before being like nah fuck this. Pulling out and calling it a day.

The reason I told you all that bullshit is because most of you probably have a similar experience and since you're all dudes you'd understand what I'm talking about. That's also why I am talking to asktrp because I see this as more of a forum for men's issues rather than a broad place for sexual stategy and revolt against feminism. Tl;Dr not a troll post, genuinely freaking out and I trust your answers.

This is one of the stupidest things I have ever done. LTRs family does not know I fuck other people. My family doesn't know. That's the way it is because society says that polygamy is wrong so we keep it to ourselves just to protect our reputation.

If this bitch gets knocked up I will vomit every day. I could not imagine having to even look at her face again because she is such a boring and unfunny slut. Let alone having to have some life long association that brings down the great life I have created for myself.

I'm not going to blame this hoe because it is entirely my fault but, from what I have described? How fucked am I? This is a clear ONE OFF thing I will never do again. Have I dodged a bullet? What are the chances this slut will get knocked up and choose NOT to abort? I'm sketching it and I needed to just tell you guys what happened and get a bit of advice. Thanks.