I fucked up a lot in my life but I'm on the path of fixing it. Right now I'm in my second semester of university and I'm trying to get into the engineering program. I've never been good at math and I've never been a good student in my life (read: lazy, shit habits), but I want to be different. I already notice my memory and analytical skills improving just by going back to school and I think it can keep improving. I know that you don't have to be mathematically gifted if you put in the work so engineering doesn't scare me necessarily.

But a lot of days I still have motivation problems when it comes to the daily grind of school work. I'm already weeks behind in 2/4 of my classes. I stopped going to the gym due to work piling up and it seems like I forever can't get my shit together. I feel like I can't get past all my shitty old habits. I find little reasons to fuck around all the time.

How do I stop this