During my college years due to some rough circumstances and a bunch of other things I was unaware of, I ended up being the guy who was very lonely. While other guys were having Tacky Christmas, New Year's Eve parties, and other themed parties with their friends and hot girls, I was alone. I tried to break in by being social but all it ended in was small talk at best. To be honest I did transfer colleges and Greek Life was huge at my school so as a junior, it was tough for me to get a bid.

The thing is, I don't suffer from issues like approach anxiety and I am in great shape. Right now in my life, what is really hurting is my mindset towards these things.

I don't even want the sex with with attractive women, the thing is, I want that kind of a life. I want a lively social circle, a chance to party with cool guys and hot girls on New Years Eve, a chance to have a social circle that consists of the Dan Bilzerians of the world along with the hot girls.

The thing is, the more I think about it, the more I realize that I just want to feel validated and superior to the same kids in college who rejected me. It is my form of a revenge fantasy I keep lusting after. I have these fantasies of partying with high SMV dudes and hot girls, putting that shit up on Instagram, and literally giving a middle finger to the people in college who never gave me a chance.

I know the advice is "get over it and validation doesn't matter" or "there is more to life than sex and social life" but quite frankly, there is nothing I can be told that will really help me get over it.

I know that this way of thinking has literally ruined some days for me but I can't just get over it.

Soooo.....

How do I actually over it and learn to enjoy my life?