So I’m 22 years old and it is 6 months since I swallowed the pill. Now I’m way more confident in front of everybody, I have clear goals in front of me and I started hitting the gym more consistently than ever before. My approach anxiety during a night out is basically gone (I still feel weird stopping random girls during day time but I’m working on it) and everything is looking great.

However last night I met a guy who completely shattered my view. Not to say I saw something that was a contradiction to what I’ve already knew thanks to the RP (if anything it was a confirmation that girls seek alphas) …. It was just next level stuff. This guy was 6’7”, 230lbs jacked as fuck and to top it had, what a lot would consider, a pretty face. He was the ultimate alpha … nothing I’ve seen before comes close to him.

He would stop every single girl and talk to her and get at least hug from her. He was extremely dominant around other males. Both of us are not native English speakers and whenever he saw a guy making eye contact with him or coming closer to a girl he was talking to, he would start swearing him in his native language ready to start the fight. I think we stopped him from getting into a fight more that 5 times. And he was not faking it – he was actually ready to throw a punch. I know that this is extremely stupid but it just highlights his dominance everywhere he goes and lack of filters.

The problem is that I felt so beta around him that I don’t believe I can ever explain. I’m 5’7, 170lb and felt so small compared to him. We enter a club and everybody is looking at him, everybody makes space for him, a few girls approaching him and the ones that didn’t approach him were receptive once he approached them. He would join a conversation with a girl I was having and would draw all attention to himself. He can’t even speak English enough to keep a conversation longer than 2 minutes. He did it a few times and I tried everything – ignoring him, making fun of him, playing his best friend. Nothing worked – the moment he joined me when I was with a girls, was the moment I was losing her.

Right now I’m as big as I’ll get and this guy who is acting like mentally disabled has appearance that I can never match. I can’t help it but wonder if I internalized the RP on a deeper level if it would make a difference.

TL;DR – Went out with a giant guy, never felt so beta in my entire life.