Basically, my only 'sexual experience' was when I was raped at 15 and I've been pretty much celibate ever since. I was able to work through the trauma with therapy and self reflection and I can happily say I've surparssed it, but I've refrained from sex ever since. Intially it was out of trauma, but then it transforrmed into a personal decision because I only want to sleep with a man that I deem as high value.

It's been many years and celibacy has been honestly very easy and comfortable for 99% of the time. But it's just that sometimes I get sooo horny, like there was this one time a very attractive man was hitting on me and we hugged for a bit. I ended up turning him down because I didn't trust his intentions, but I will admit that the physical contact, the smell of his cologne and the fact that he was a fine specimen turned me on so much that I got home and I didn't know what to do with myself. I'm glad that I practiced restraint, because I later found out this guy is a 'player' (eyeroll) and he's been pinning for me ever since (lol idiot), but it just gets so damn hard sometimes. Like, I have these wet dreams that get me all hot and bothered once on in a while, it's just hilariously awkward 🤣

Any tips other than masturbation? Thank you ladies for reading, you all inspire and empower me every day ❤