Hi, so this isn’t my usual type of post that I make. Instead, this is a much more positive experience than expected. For years, I’ve had a very childish and complicated relationship with this girl that ended and started up again NUMEROUS times over a course of 4-5 years.
I saw her again hanging with some homies and it was cool. Yes there was touching, teaser and so on, almost if I we were cool how we use to be when we first met. Yes I already made a move and it went haywire and our entire social community knows about it so that’s why I didn’t plan on doing anything.
This morning, it was just the two of us in the house. I went out to do some deliveries and when I came back she was ready for me and getting ready. Our last intersection- she comes to me and daps me up, kinda lingers and she goes out and sits in her car. I get another order so I head out the door to lock it up and I’m like halfway into the car thinking if I should go and talk to her but the problem is, we have nothing to talk about
I get in and try to tease her about her not having it when I ask for it and she was smiling, full eye contact with me. But I had to leave and so did she. I say all of this to say. What would have bothered me before as my brain loves to make up problems and what ifs (when I don’t score) I felt like I was forcing it. The problem and the approach. I’m saying this because for years I would torture myself ruin my self Esteem. But I have to come to the uncomfortable terms with it. I don’t care as much. And it’s weird… growth is weird.