19 year old guy here. Been lifting for 4 years and I have a 5% physique, people tell me I'm good looking and shit. Yet, I'm still a virgin. I made out with some girls in the past but never managed to fuck any of them, due to my betaness. In the last period I went mad for this, if you read the last posts I wrote on here, you'll see how I made women my "mission". This virginity thing is fucking with my head since a very very long time.

I am meeting an escort in a few hours and I'm excited to see how much I overrated sex and women in my entire life. I won't be surprised to feel empty after I lose it, but that's what I want. I want to understand that women shouldn't be the focus of my life.

I have a mission in life but I have trouble focusing on it for this reason. Anytime I work on my mission I have women coming up in my head. This is clearly a confidence issue, and I believe it has to do with the fact that I'm still a virgin, because there's no other reason. I have a better body than 95% of guys so why should I feel unconfident for that? I accomplished lot of shit in life that lot of guys would love to accomplish. I have trouble approaching girls even for this reason. I mean, how the fuck can I be confident with women if I never fucked one of them? Tried "faking it till I make it", but that shit there is stressful as fuck and I can't stand it anymore.

Oh and btw, I approached at least 40-50 girls in the past, and most of them rejected me, but I understood that the problem had to do with my weak frame and lack of confidence, and not with my looks.

I've read the sidebar and the top 200 posts of trp in the last year every single day, and I clearly improved my game a lot, but evidently it's still not enough. I know theory 95-100% but the real problem is applying it in real life and internalising it into your subconscious. I've also read Sex God Method but you know, reading that stuff without actually fucking is no different than watching porn.

I feel weird going to an hooker at this age, even more considering that I am good looking. But honestly it's better than fucking an HB3 I don't even like. I had many ugly girls chasing me but honestly my dick wouldn't even work with them.

So yeah, what's your advice? What should I do with this hooker to get the maximum out of it? I wanted to try implementing what I've read on SGM but is being dominant with an hooker a thing? I feel like I'm risking shit. (That's a serious question)