I don't know how I ended up in that situation.

I developed oneitis for a girl that has almost no good qualities at all. She looks good, she have a boyfriend we had some fun one time (she cheated on him) and then she withdrew and maybe I started chasing a bit too much.

But on a logical level I have no idea why I chase her at all:

  • She is not smart
  • She can never truly be faithful
  • She does to her boyfriend whatever she likes
  • Has zero ambition

Why the hell I ended up having onetis for this one? It's true I don't have many options because right now I'm trying to make my own way, I have decent income, I'm in decent shape and things are going all around well for me and I'm not focused on girls at all.

I started seeing validating women in ANY way as simping. I know it might not be right, but I'm telling you I don't even look at them anymore (especially if they are dressed sexy because thats' what they want me to do).

So with this girl we go back maybe 2-3 years and she was the only one I engaged in any sexual way, since I'm trying to not chase them at all.

I feel like any interest I show to a girl is actually percieved as a simping and beta right away by them.

I think I became way too extreme, I don't know if I'm MGTOW, but the only thing I'm focused on right now (also as a part to forget the onetisi which is now blocked) is working out, taking care of my business and working on my projects. I don't even LOOK at girls most of the time.

Sometimes doing that while all other dudes are partying and having good time with girls makes me feel like I'm an outcast. And before I was the dude that was hanging with all chics.

Do you think my behavior is normal or it's truly an outcast?