I was born and raised by a single mother which can probably explain everything. I never really had any masculine guidance or learned how to be a man. Top that off with poverty, malnourished, becoming underdeveloped and a skinny male. I have never had success with women, have never had male friends, actually other guys seem to AMOG me constantly and treat me as an outcast.

I started work at a new job everything was going good I was there (and still am) for one thing only to make money so I can affect change. I'm paying off a truck, I'm building a computer, I'm handling my DUI fine, and getting ready to move out of my grandpas to have my own place in the next 6 or so months. I work two jobs, retail and food delivery.

First sign when I started my retail job a really cute girl approached me and talked to me often, she would giggle at most things I said even though they weren't funny. I actually posted on here and everyone said 'assume attraction' well nothing really ever came out except I got cucked by another guy that works there. I seen her leave with him and get in his car when they got off LMAO. This guy knows how flirt really well so she naturally gravitated towards him and just stopped approaching me at all. at one point I heard her ask him 'do you have a lot of hoes?' his response was 'a hoe lotta problems" which i thought was a really good response to her shittest. i don't have oneitis over this girl i could care less but it made me realize even when a girl shows attraction I can't make anything of it and some guy will just continue to cuck me in the future.

NOW at work a lot of other guys seem to AMOG me and clown on me in front other people. I just shut down and take it very personally. For instance I got agitated at some retail customer related stuff and in front of my coworkers this guy told me 'don't take it personally man and honestly they're probably only doing it because you seem like an easy target'. Too me this was an attack on manhood because guys aren't supposed to be 'easy targets' true men nobody is going to fuck with them. I do believe him but I don't understand what is making this? Another thing that seems to happen is I try to socialize with people and they kinda just ignore me and walk away mainly the other guys there? not sure why they respond like this?