I took pill few months ago. I live in small town with few choices, say four or five young girls around. I had my eye on a girl for a while and asked her out. She declined. And furthermore, she went out with an obnoxious guy who is loud, badly dressed and had no career. My model of alpha path is calm,collected, well dressed,silent and dominating. she was indeed more respectful towards me than him, but i could see her swearing at him was more of tingles due to his obnoxiousness. I wasn't sad when i was rejected. but when i knew today that that guy fucked her, i confess i'm sad. so that's evidence that i have lots to grow because i still 'feel' about rejection and also got mild oneitis. I also i realised girls may have their preference for alpha types. Her friend seemed to like me more compared to other boys.

I will appreciate any insights on this case. Bash me, help me and whatever.