So after a year of finding TRP I definitely improved myself and my behavior.

Point is, I still have some beta traits. One of these is a weird one.

Basically every time I'm outside and want to approach some girls, It always ends like this: I see the girl, and instead of approaching her straight away, all I do is trying to act alpha with my body language and get attention walking by.

Before you tell me, I know this is fucking feminine, and that's why I'm trying to sort this out.

Now, I'm wondering, why do I do this? What do I think I'll achieve by acting like this? If I think rationally about it, women will never approach me even if they look at me. So fucking MANY opportunities lost like this and I'm beating myself up.

Needless to say, this shit here is the reason of my unsuccess with women. I'm good looking and got a great physique, but this thing here is stopping me from achieving my true potential.

Everytime I saw a girl, I realised she was looking at me a few seconds later, but instead of approaching her, I walked by acting like I'm ignoring her. This is ridicolous and I'm realising it only now after having lost like hundreds of opportunities due to this.

Another one, still when approaching women. Basically when I see a girl, instead of just going to her, I repress that desire and try to forget about it telling to myself "I don't really care". Guess what, after 2 minutes I'm filled with regret.

How do I stop this behavior? What's the root cause in your opinion? I've tried reading lot of stuff about this but I guess I have to find the root cause of it. I'm already trying to ingest in my mind the "I'm the prize" mindset but I do not know how long it's going to take to be honest. There's a difference between reading and truly internalizing it into your mindset. Generally speaking, I suffer from impostor syndrome and that shit there is fucking with my confidence too.