I’ll try to keep this as concise as possible. I only recently learned about TRP during a short and shitty LTR which ended a week ago. Quick backstory, I met this girl in a dui class, and we had instant chemistry. Now I have many alpha qualities, but acted very beta in many ways. I was able to fuck this girl way earlier than she told me (2nd date vs. the 6 months she suggested). I soon asked her to be my girlfriend and proceeded to shower her with gifts and favors. I think the attraction wore off for her pretty quickly as a result. Here’s the important stuff.

I ignored huge red flags: -she was still sort of hung up on the one that got away; -was sending/receiving nude pics to a couple ex chads, but abruptly stopped once we started dating. (Maybe that shouldn’t count as a red flag) -she had a weird relationship with Adderal, which would result in some strange behaviors, including staying up all night “to get shit done.” Then she would feel terrible about herself for staying up all night like a tweeker, would be ashamed and ignore me. This caused a lot of trust issues for me; -we met with an understanding that we were both sober and trying to better our lives after both getting dui’s. As the relationship went on, it became apparent she wasn’t done drinking. I allowed this to push me back into drinking (which, if you knew me, or her, you would agree we should not be drinking).

So long story, we absolutely adored each other and made some mistakes. We broke up and got back together 6 times in these last 6 months!!!smh Well I’m done and we both know it. I broke up with her and said some pretty harsh but true shit to her. We’ve had zero contact except she had some of my shit which she put on her front porch, and we just had to coordinate when I would pick it up through some very short and simple texts.

Here comes the question: I have no desire to rekindle with her, and am excited to focus on myself. Where I’m not sure is whether I should just go slay pussy like there’s no tomorrow (which isn’t super easy for me btw, due to approach anxiety, but I’ve already begun pushing myself to approach more, but haven’t pulled any during this week we’ve been apart.) Or, based on what I told you about having problems with alcohol, and really my life isn’t terrible but it’s definitely not where I want it, is this the time to refocus on (or reestablish) my mission, go monk for a bit?... I started hitting the gym after our third or fourth breakup thanks to TRP, I have a good job, and spend a lot of time on TRP. I don’t read much or meditate (just procrastinating on that), and spend a lot of time escaping, use porn, eat like shit, sleep too much, etc. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.