I've been lurking on TRP for some time now and I'd say that I've made huge leaps. I was full beta before finding the subreddit. You know the deal. I put women on a pedestal. My friends teased me because I fell in 'love' with every girl I slept with (oneitis). Etc, etc. Now I do my best to act in accordance with the teachings of TRP. The only problem for me is that there's a great discrepancy between my actions and my feelings. For example, there's nothing I want more in life right now than to cuddle up with one of my plates and talk about 'life', and open up to her, and share my problems with her, etc. Now, I wouldn't be caught dead doing these things because TRP has taught me how these actions will likely cause an immediate decline in said relationship. Alas, my desire to do these things is still strong and this has created a dichotomy within me.

So I now turn to you: How do I go about suppressing/satisfying this feeling/desires so that I can be a complete 'alpha' and so that I am not constantly torn between two contrasting personas.