Hey, AskTrp. I'm gonna try to keep this short. So this is my 2nd time posting here, the last time was roughly 2 weeks ago I believe. I was a complete mess and felt pathetic and depressed over a girl. I had that going on for quite some time too.

Someone commented on my post telling me to just continue doing what I should and NEVER stop. I hated it. I really did. I didnt even enjoy lifting recently but I still did it. Didnt enjoy meditating but still did it. You get the gist of it.

Yesterday though, it was strange. For once I didnt wake up thinking about the previous girls. I didnt wake thinking about how I dont have much friends. Or why I'm low on cash atm. I didnt wake up with the sad type of groggyness one has only when sleep is his best option.

I woke up genuinely feeling good. But at the same time, I really didnt care about the so called problems I had. I thought about it but my mind saw it as just another task I'll complete. It feels strange. Im not mad at my ex. Im not mad or sad about my life. I genuinely dont care..but its not the same not caring I told myself I had before when it eas coming out of being sad.

My goal now is hoping to find true enlightenment as cheesy as that sounds. But I really wanna know if any one has just reached a part in their lives where everything wasnt necessarily clicking on the outside but they were. Basically, a moment where you felt peaceful inwards. I understand this may not be discussed much on TRP but I feel like that's why we are all here. To just be happy.

Sure, it may come in different forms but I stilm believe its internal and that transcends externally. I wanna hear from you, my brothers. How do you genuinely feel right now in your life?