Hard to believe I am here. Almost got married to a bisexual “sex positive” woman who throws her earlier polygamous relationships in my face and gets upset that I want to be monogamous. We’ve lived in a war zone for a few years. I told her that if she wants to have fwb on the side I’ll have one night stands. That scared her. We haven’t stepped out yet that I know of but we have done 3-ways together some some of her women friends. No great satisfaction because they are more into her than me. In case it just sounds like I’m a “lucky” beta I’ll tell you that I have money and lots of success in my field but I don’t come across as alpha. She says that if I have relationships outside this one she will so that things are “equal.” Since marriage fell off the table there’s been a LOT of shit testing. She breaks rapport and gets dicky all the time. Says that she's older now and wants commitment. I don't want to be trapped in a marriage. Thinking about just calling her bluff and saying "let's open this relationship."

Thing is I love her but this is extreme game. How fucked am I?