Long story short, I dated a girl. She was obsessed with me. She left her previous boyfriend of seven years to date me. We dated, she kept in contact with almost every boyfriend she had. I flat out know she isn't worth pursuing, she sucks. She cheated on me with the dude she left me for for fuck sake and the only reason I found out is because HE messaged me on Facebook, rofl. Keep in mind, we're encroaching on 30 years old. I could fuck her any time I wanted if I acted unaffected and put on my charm. It's happened countless times.

BUT I can't shake it. I have no idea why. I have completely subjected myself to her, I'm clueless as to why. I have no issue fucking other women at all. I just can not shake this girl's hold on me. No red pill strategy works on her. She isn't even the hottest chick I've dated in terms of physical attraction nor is it the best sex I've ever had.

It's as if I have some savior complex. Every single friend I showed her to before we dated was like "Uhh... you can do way better, man." and she even agreed I could do better when we first dated, but I sacrificed so much frame in the beginning that I am fucked with this chick.

I know it's as easy as "NEXT!", but.. fuck man. I invested too much emotionally and now I'm just stuck. I haven't been this attached in 5-6 years, it's embarrassing.

I don't know what to do. Fucking other women isn't helping despite them being hotter than she is. I didn't talk to her for 3 months, then she randomly came back into my life and FUCKED me up again emotionally.

It's important to note I am not unattractive in the slightest. I'm 27 years old. Last weekend I fucked a 48 year old, a 22 year old and 25 year old in the span of 48 hours. It has nothing to do with "Bro, lift more. Get more set on your status and security." - I'm 5'9", 155 pounds with 7% body fat and I make great money. But anyway, all the women I had sex with...they were all interesting, fun and made an effort. This chick that I'm fucked up over shows no effort, cheats on me and trashes me for my confidence and confuses it for arrogance.

I just have no idea what the fuck to do. The easy answer is "move the fuck on, pussy." - I've talked to my dad about it and he agrees. It's just... not that easy for me, I don't know why. Please advise. What do I do if she decides to talk to me again? (She will.) What do I do if it's negative or positive?

I'm not interested in spinning plates. I'm so fucked up about her that I actually WANT her relationship wise DESPITE her cheating on me. It is the most fucked up thing I've ever thought or said to anyone publicly because I know she'd be the worst fucking mother in the history of mothers ever. She constantly says "Oh, you're it for me. I love you." and then the next minute she says the most fucked up, cunt-y things I've ever heard and I refuse to react to them other than complete silence. And then I go have sex with other women to attempt to get her off my mind.

I don't know, I feel like a bitch. Please help.