Honestly, as much as I don't show it. I'm being a total pussy.

With girls, I pretend like I don't catch feelings, I act like I don't give a fuck what they do. I dread game girls constantly and do pretty well keeping girls on their toes and fucking me good. I've gotten really good at putting up this wall.

I'm actually pretty good gaming girls and getting laid. However the part that i'm lacking is a truly strong frame.

I do get worried about losing girls, I do often wait for girls to text me back. I do actually give a fuck when a girl doesn't respond, or when a girl talks about another dude. I do fucking care. I do an amazing job at holding myself together in front of girls and being an Alpha, but deep down I get Lonely if I don't have a consistent girl in my life.

I tell myself that a if a woman ever disrespected me or cheated on me, i would leave her immediately (and I actually would), but I know I would still feel hurt.

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I have made ultimatums to girls in the past where If they went against what I said, I would of had to go through with things that I really didn't want to do (once again, i actually would). But I know it would definitely hurt me.

I'm 20 years old, I take care of myself and have a decent physique. I own a business and I feel like most areas of my life are rock solid. I got started in the self improvement community pretty early so i've been at this for a few years. I can approach confidently and I know I can get laid with HB8's.

I thought after fucking enough chicks I would not give a fuck or be able to be hurt by woman.

I almost just deleted everything because I'm honestly embarrassed this is the way I am.

I just want to get to a point where I don't get so attached to females so quickly. I want to get to a point where I can leave a girl without thinking about it twice. I want to become a man that can live on my own without needing anybody to not feel lonely.

What do i need to do to work on this part of myself? I accept what it is and i'm willing to work on it Just like every area of my life I grind on.

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Please help.

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