It just makes me feel terrible. I have a thing for Italian women and i download tinder, put the location to Italy and ask the girls how many black guys they have fucked. If all the girls say zero my day goes off fine and I am happy. Instead, if they say they have been with Muslim and black guys I jerk off to the story and the thought and feel like a terrible cuck.

I just feel sad as I do this all day from 11 am in the morning till 3 am at nigHt. I jerk off 7 times a day. Unfortunately, I also feel sad that in my 4 years in Italy I have not had sex with an italian and have only made out with 2 italian girls. I have had a Greek and Brazilian gf but I have put italian girks on a pedestal. Now I have moved in back with my parents who mentally abuse me all day