I'm 21 and going through a rough patch. I just moved back home after my apartment lease ended and I'm having a hard time accepting where I'm at in life right now.

Now that I'm back living with my parents, every problem I've been having is amplified. I'm realizing how unhappy I've been since graduating high school and living in my hometown. The majority of my friends went off to college and the ones that stayed back live with their girlfriends and have no interest in going out and partying. I also I broke it off with ex-LTR about 5 months ago and this crushing loneliness I've been dealing with is causing some pretty bad oneitis. At my lowest point, I checked her social media and her life appears to have improved greatly since I ended things. Fucking stupid for me to look.

I'm an attractive guy, I get a lot of attention when I do go to parties (which isn't happening very often anymore), but I feel like I'm restricted and not growing as a man. I'm back living with my parents, my social life has died, I'm not meeting new people, haven't had a plate since the couple weeks after I broke up with my ex, etc.

I just started running and lifting these past few weeks after a long hiatus and it's the only thing that's giving me a peace of mind right now. I want to implement more healthy habits but I end up failing and giving into vices (smoking, porn, mindless internet scrolling). The quick dopamine hits are the only thing I feel are keeping me somewhat sane, but I'm tired of feeding my mind and body with that crap.

I hate to sound like such a whiny bitch, but this shit has been bothering me for some time now and I feel this is the only place I can talk about it. If anyone has some wisdom and advice it'd be greatly appreciated.

Thanks