My captain and I have had a rocky relationship, after getting engaged super fast, I got off my mental health medication and we had a tremendously hard year that ended with my captain moving to LA for a better job with the idea that I would follow at some point. I got on new meds and I'm doing fantastic now but my captain has had it rough. My captain and I were doing the long distance thing until he was really weird for two weeks and then admitted that doing a relationship this way was too hard, it wouldn't succeed and he didn't feel like he could do it. After a lot of fights we decided to go radio silent for a while to focus on ourselves. It's really hard not feeling abandoned, especially with valentine's day coming up. I'm really proud of him for trying to improve and I want to do all I can to be the wifey he truly deserves. These are the things I'm trying to do while I'm away from my soulmate (somewhat nsfw): -Tone my muscles and get a booty (lost weight, now I need muscle) -Intensify my skincare routine -I got a nice dildo to practice deep throating -Applying to grad school near my captain and working on my career -Establishing a daily routine to improve my discipline -Be kind to myself and get in touch with my feminine softness -The 5 love languages and the surrendered wife are on my reading list -I booked a trip to San Diego and I'm going to let my captain know closer to the trip so he can choose whether or not he wants to see me, either way I'm going to vacay, see museums and get spa treatments -Keep seeing my therapist weekly Anything else I should think about doing?