After taking the red pill recently I have zero desire to go get a girlfriend. All I want to do is work my ass off on raising my SMV as high as possible. I'm disgusted by society in general. I was born a Christian so I was essentially taught the blue pill path of finding my one and only and getting married. I've been mentally and emotionally drained from oneitis twice. I am very introverted and still am a Christian so I don't like the ideas of hooking up, spinning plates, cheating. I'm torn as to what I'm supposed to do. I don't want to be a blue pilled bitch but I still want an LTR and have kids eventually. It is enraging to finally learn the whole "men are romantics pretending to be realists and women are the opposite" when we are basically told the opposite. Well, we are told the opposite of ALL trp concepts. Do you think "loving" relationships still exist? Does "love" only exist if your SMV is higher than hers? Is the idea of love bullshit and merely a result of sex (the binding stuff)? I'm currently reading rational male. Thanks guys.