You know I’ve been on this journey slowly working on myself over the past year and 5-6 months. I haven’t had much success with women yet but I think I’ve been working hard.

I’ve been in the gym every night doing weights + cardio, eating healthy, I cut out gaming and any TV aside from visiting a few Reddit’s here and there, building finance and just working 10 hrs a day pretty much. Living alone because don’t want to be weighed down with retardation at this point in my life.

Now I understand fully that there’s no sympathy for being a piece of shit loser - if I choose to stay at home, be an idiot that plays games, and dress like an idiot then I deserve to be stomped on and spat on.

The more I improve myself and start discarding useless stuff the more I realise how little I can relate to the common man to the point I’m in this position where I can’t reallt identify any real quality male company.

There’s these fat loser guys that drift around my apartment buildings one weirdo that sits in his room and watches tv for 17 hours a day. He was eyeballing me the other day and I repulsed at this decrepit human.

I have this friend that has been begging me for my PS4 account so he can download a video game - I told him to grow him and stop being an idiot. I can’t even have a normal conversation. His gf left him as well and started messaging me, which I deflected away.

Even now this loser guy next door is still on his television it’s like 1am in the morning I’m done with all my daily activities, gym, cleaning up. I can hear these moans of retardation - anyway I leave this apartment building in one month so I’m gearing up to live in a non-idiot location if possible. I’m going to vet carefully and scope out the idiots.

Just basically any interaction of any sort feels like it brings me down - I just ignore all of this at the point. I’m hopeful I can work hard, consolidate a good location, basically create an environment and develop relationships with girls whether plate or otherwise - still have to work on myself.

I can totally understand the girls perspective on everything - men really are trash, no wonder they get fucked over. And all these people asking if it’s ok to fap.

I mean I can’t even bring myself to fap these days it is just a deplorable lack of pride to bring myself to that level let alone turn on the TV. I literally saw this game of thrones trailer on Facebook today (which is something I’m questioning why I was scrolling on today) and I could feel my life slipping away if I bothered to watch it so I ignored that.

Only things that seem to make sense to me right now is nutrition, lifting which is like a Holy Church a sanctuary I wish I lived there tbh, working on making bank every day, researching new opportunities and developing myself to the point I can kiss the shitty side of the world goodbye - literally semi isolating myself in a secure apartment somewhere, where only rich Asian kids live and other normal human beings live.

Ignoring everything until I get this seems the only real viable choice - pussy is not viable in this current mode.