As a human i need contact with other people, a job, and to move from parents.I need these things to survive and to not hate myself.

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Regardless how big your self esteem/confidence is, you will still feel very bad if you wont have above mentioned things for years

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my dad said that every older human is smarter but thats a bs, his lifestyle for last 30 yrs was dead end low entry job >> tv at home >> repeat.

not much could he learn from this, as he made 0 progress and 0 skills in last 30 years. This is, in my eyes, very depressing image.

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Not writing this to hate on my dad, i love my parents, but i dont want to be like that, like.. never.

My mom is like him.

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My peers and my peers' parents are like that as well (mostly).

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Althrough my parents want me to find a job, they wont kick me. I could use this time to keep learning stuff that may one day help me make either business or some other source of income.

And this is what ive been doing for a while and probably could keep on it but it makes me very depressed as im learning new things everyday instead of socializing or living or working or banging girlz or simply consuming (im more in producing mode now).

im just not sure, i know to feel better i just need to get a job, move, get better job, go gym and thats easy to do but i will spend 40h a week in job and i will change into another boring human without perspectives like my parents or other people who just work all day then they are tired to do anything and just waste rest of life in front of tv

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