Had a tinder date and it just did not really go well. Awful for me at least.

I understand it’s my fault for not having my pimpin right, so just looking advice

So match on tinder while back. I been busy and today decided to set up date. Cooking at my house. Ok no problem.

I’m late because I was doing some other shit. Told her to be ready.

Pick her up and we do the awkward formalities. She’s putting that “im still scared you’re a rapist”. Eventually goes away after first trip to store.

Stop to grab some shit. She’s jumping, having fun, were making up a recipe, it’s sort of fun for me too. She was constantly feeling my arms and saying they were amazing. Then she drops a massive shit test calling me out on having an ugly face. I was shocked inside. Everyone I know considers me to be handsome. I just A&A. She then dropped 1-2 more comments about my looks throughout the night. It is what it is, but it was hard in the moment. . Ride home is ok. Shit tests here and there. Kinda fun. I did feel like I was reactive majority of the date. Like I found myself reacting to her responses and words. I wasn’t calm.

Arrive at place. Touch a bit. Snacking her ass. We make some shit and lay down. Instantly she quickly rattle off “were not having sex”. Like she just threw it super quickly. I call her out and asks if she thinks I’m that easy playfully. I give her tease look and she says but makeout is ok and whatever happens happens!

From then I pushed/pulled few times, gave her a peck or got close to lip and pulled. She even called me out and kept trying to kiss me. We did but I didnt know how to escalate.

She then went on to give me some personal shit about her life (I never tell this to anyone). I listen. Kiss her while she’s talking. I don’t really know how to escalate.but I tried lifting shirt up, denied.

At one point (I think big mistake); I started talking about spirituality with her too. Problem is, I did it with the intention of common ground/agreement. It wasn’t righteous or authentic. I yapped. Kissed

She goes back to yaping. At this point I just stare at her. She’s giving me that dumb smily face like “what are you thinking about”. To myself I’m thinking... what the fuck. I am an absolute hunk. Like I can’t believe this bitch actually has the courage to not fuck me. I’m so much better than her”

Insecurity piped up mid stare and asks me if I think she’s prettier in pics or person. Of course I say in pictures. She gives me playful slaps and says I love the honesty.

I ask for message. She’s grabbing my muscles, i am consistently being playful and sexual. I have no problems talking about sex and shit.

So I turn to give her message and I grab ass, start pull her shirt up, she’s ok. I then tried pull her pants down and she says they don’t go down. I tell her to move and again she says no. I have enough. Get your shit let’s get out.

Drive her back. She’s hugging up on me asking if I am mad. I just blast my music. I was obviously butt hurt but like ignoring that she existed. I was just thinking of what’d I’d done differently.

Basically I feel like I acted too much like a bitch. I also spent a lot of time reacting and trying to make sure she didn’t think I was a creep.

I did get real at some points and told her straight up, but it was that weird she’s next to me hugging, I’m grabbing ass, but she keeps rejecting the next move.