I'm posting this to receive some well deserved criticism. As the title states, I have failed in spectacular fashion. I've went Rambo, had zero OYS posts, I've been a kid with dynamite who happened to steal his mums booze before lighting the fuse. I had some initial successes, but now I've fucked it all up.

One thing that I've always struggled with is alcoholism and the depression that comes with it - binge drinking has always been part of my DNA since an early age. I know I shouldn't drink and can go months or years without touching a drop, however a special occasion or work event comes round and mr fuckin drunk retard makes an appearance and blows everything to smithereens. For me, MRP and alcohol don't mix at all and I should've realised this and taken the correct action long before now. Maybe if I had gone teetotal the marriage may have had a chance.

My lifts are shit, SQ 176 BP 154 DL 220 BR 126.5 OHP 88. I've been obsessed with getting to 12%BF before bulking and have only been eating 1800 calories. I'm now 160lbs at 5'8" and 15%BF. I've had to delaod loads of times due to injuries sustained from poor form. Only positive is that my form has been fine tuned and is really good on all lifts.

I've read most of the reccomended books and other sidebar links.

Went on a day out at the end of last year and got sloppy drunk. As usual the wife shit tested me hard the following day when I was fragile and it escalated into a massive fight, after which she moved to the spare room. She's been there ever since and has constantly threatened to leave. Well, now she has officially arranged a new place to stay and is leaving with the kids two weeks from now. The house has been a nightmare to live in and I think she's checked out. She's also really rubbing it in by constantly talking about her big move. Well, two days ago I caved, left the house and hit the booze. I then proceeded to text her some drunk messages that make me fuckin cringe. In the texts I sounded exactly like the complete fuckin drunk asshole I am.

Did any of the advice given to me here previously suggest that I should get sloppy drunk and be an asshole? No

Does the sidebar state one must send shitty Beta texts to a wife about to jump ship? No

TL;DR Had initial success. Have a binge drinking problem on nights out. Wife leaving in two weeks time.