I have become very lazy in my ways and have waved goodbye to my self confidence in the last 3 months.

I have recently been piling on the weight since I left home last September. I find myself more angry than ever. I carry my three roommates, mowing lawns, patching holes in render they created, painting over marks and cleaning after their laziness. Considering we all consider eachother "good friends", I feel these relationships have become rather transactional, especially since I moved in with them. I feel like the house mom and dad and it makes me feel like a walkover.

I recently changed my business major from economics to information systems due to my lack of understanding around calculus, playing catch up and dealing with the already heavy study load. Although I think this is a good change, i feel as though I am going backwards, adding months to my graduation date which has me in a mood.

I feel more valued at work, finely being noticed and not overshadowed by co-workers. This makes me happy.

In summary, I'm an overweight, unhappy, virgin, angry lazy beta, but I can feel the fire burning under my ass and feel the need to change rapidly starting today.

Goals for this year 1. Drop the weight 2. Develop discipline and routine 3. Be happy 4. Graduate 5. Improve relationships with friends and family 6. Quit gambling 7. Get motorcycle license and a bike.

Any advice on fixing motivation, getting into routines and dealing with difficult roommates etc would be appreciated

Any readings ?